When I read other peoples’ blogs they all seem so focused and single-minded. Well I have never been focused or single-minded. I have a jack-rabbit for a brain. I could go one way or I could go another way. I could freeze in the middle of the road and BAM! get hit by a car because I couldn’t resist staring into the headlights. That’s just how I’m made. Sometimes I’ve envied people who can stay so focused and be one thing all the time. I’ve tried and I can’t do it.
This is my first blog ever and I am honored if people consider me good enough to blogroll, but it puts a certain amount of pressure on me to “perform” as these kind, good Christian people expect me to. Now I understand that going public with your thoughts can open a whole can of worms for you. Much like people in the limelight, you are scrutinized for your exegesis of the bible, your Christian thoughts, etc. You have co-workers reading your blog, your family is reading it, various friends are reading, and unless they all know you really, really well, you could surprise a few with some thoughts they weren’t sure you had in you. Talk about PRESSURE!
I suppose I should say right off that I’m a mixed bag of thoughts, ideas, emotions, and philosophies. I could just as easily spout off about Jesus and then chastise his church for being sexist piglets. It depends on the mood. I am, by no means, stable. So…I hope everyone here realizes the risk of reading posts that could range from serious Christian devotionals to feminist rants against the patriarchy! Most everyone has thoughts within them that they don’t share with others. Being ever conscious of this and not using a blog as kind of a daily diary will help alleviate brainus vomitus syndrome. Bear with me. 🙂