Humility, Silence, and the Lack of Desire to Blog

I’ve been spending my time reading Journaling Faith and being truly repentant on a lot of matters. Convicted? You betcha! I’ve also frequented Emerging Grace and the Emerging Women blogs, as well as Internet Monk and other wise men such as Dallas Willard. I sense a moving of the Spirit here. What else can I possibly say? I’ve fallen, in my own estimation, so far from grace it’s not funny. My imagination? Maybe, but I don’t think so. God’s dealing heavily with me right now. Because of this, and because I’ve gone to church now a couple of times, with good results, I’ve stepped back a little from my blog. I’ve also returned to work part-time. Too much to keep up with right now. I suppose what I’m saying is that I’m taking another sabbatical. Whenever I actually STATE this, I end up writing anyway, but frankly, I haven’t missed it lately. I’ll see you when I Emerge myself!


5 thoughts on “Humility, Silence, and the Lack of Desire to Blog

  1. MoI,
    You say “I’ve fallen, in my own estimation, so far from grace it’s not funny. ” You do not fall from grace, you fall into grace.

  2. “Fallen from grace” is an interesting phrase. I don’t think we ever fall from it, or out of it. Rather, grace is always there, we just sometimes (or lots of times) find ourselves unable to recognize it. This could be because we’re in a situation where we’re so caught up in the negative, which is blinding us to what’s there. If we’re really angry with someone, it’s hard to get a sense of grace when all we can see is the reasons for the anger. Note: I’m not saying that you’re doing this, or it’s your fault, but just a general example.

    Or it’s because we’ve “outgrown” previous concepts of grace. Our old paradigm no longer works, because we’ve become more complex, or learned some new aspect to grace. And thus the ideas must be adjusted accordingly, as we get a better understanding of grace.

    At any rate, given that repentence leads to growth, hopefully you’ll look back on this and say it was worth it, and valuable lessons are learned. 🙂

  3. Heather,
    Wise words. I have found myself being a tad negative most of the time. I suppose I’m taking a sabbatical from myself! Yes, “falling” is a poor choice of words. I should say “shifting” into newer concepts of grace. There, that sounds better. 🙂

  4. MOI,

    I can relate to the being too negative. I find myself that way at times, too. There’s a lot of negativity out there — you and I have both encountered it on other blogs. In those times, it’s very easy to respond negatively, especially when it seems that you’re just dealing with the same old all over again, and re-hashing. But sometimes, the negativity of others just seeps into one’s self.

    **I should say “shifting” into newer concepts of grace. There, that sounds better.**

    I think so, too. 🙂 You didn’t fall, you just feel as though you’ve lost sight of it.

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